Your current relationship status

(and if single, discuss being single)

Well, I'm in a committed relationship with Castle and It's been going on for awhile now. It's different now that okay, okay I'm kidding. 

I'm single. 

Now stop your sighs of pity and condescending head nods. I'm okay being single and no, I'm not masking my need to be in a relationship with the cheerleading. I really am fine with being single and I fully embrace it and am proud of my singularity. 

I just finished A Level and that was an emotionally draining experience and I want to take this time now to focus on me. I'm still in the process of finding myself and discovering what I like and to be honest I'm having fun existing as a singular unit instead of being identified as one half of a couple. 

I always feel that before you start a relationship, you have to be ready to be in one. Quite frankly, I'm far from ready and that's okay. What's not okay is starting a relationship and not putting in the effort because I'm not ready and the other person is. It's unfair and selfish. 

I'm looking at the very real possibility of studying overseas and getting in a relationship right now would be stupid. I don't think I'll be able to handle a long distance relationship and if he asks me to stay, then I will. I don't commit easily but when I do, I don't do it by halves. What happens if I decide to stay and give up on what could have been only to break up a week later or even a month later? I would have given up my future and for what? The thought of me giving up what I've been dreaming about for so long scares me.  

So in conclusion, I'm single and I'm happy. 

If you're wondering about the oddly specific question and the reason for it, it's because I'm doing the 30 day blogging challenge this December. So come check out this blog this entire month, there will be something new each day.