New beginnings

As I look back at the past year of my course prompted by what a friend said, I've realised that so much has changed. And with that, so have I. Take my physics lecturer for example, each sem brought on a new lecturer and now finally in our third semester are we finally being provided with a lecturer that knows his material and knows how to engage us. Saving grace and not a moment too soon. Our classroom has shifted and we're now on the second floor, which according to the laws of physics should be warmer as, hot air rises and cold air falls but alas, it's cold up there. Especially in my classroom.

I remember starting out college promising myself that this was just a pit stop and I would not care about the people I met and had to deal with for the next 1.5 years. I told convinced myself that I would not be invested and whatever could happen, I knew that I would leave everything behind when I graduated.

How far I've come since. I've forged bonds with people I never knew I needed or even expected to meet and I come to realise that these are the people I'll keep in touch with even after we've gone our separate ways. I've come to be apart of many inside jokes and crafted many fond memories with them and when I look back, I know I'll define my A level experience as somewhat enjoyable because of all this.

We've shed tears together and I know the worst is yet to come and we've clutched out stomachs in pain after laughing. We've had a stay over and I never expected to have one at all.

Sure there have been times when I've walked into college with fear and trepidation of what the day brings but looking at my class, I see the faces of people going through the same thing. The uncertainty, stress and anxiety is what brings is all together. There are moments of doubts due to seeds of insecurity watered by jealousy but at the end of the day, I know that there are people that I can count on that will be there for me regardless.

They've had faith in me even when mine was lacking in myself and they've pushed me to be my better self and trust me, having someone else think you can do it, means the world.

Each day in college is a new experience with things constantly changing. It may be hotter, we may have a sub, lunch might be missed, your lecturer may hate on you that day but, bottom line is, you'll never be alone. There's a whole classroom full of people enduring about the same thing currently in the same walk of life and if you squint there's a whole college full of people ready to support you because we've been there and we get it. So despite being a different person from the person I was when I first walked through the glass doors I am still the same person. And despite today being rough, tomorrow brings about new promises and new beginnings.